Sunday was
one of the hardest the most excruciating days of my life! Sunday marked the day before I had to go back to work...All I could do was anticipate how horrible it would be. I was emotional, but I held it together pretty well throughout the week. I was away from Liam a couple hours as I played on our church worship team for the first time since the end of November. (I had to take a break at the end of my pregnancy because I felt like I was a mile away from the keyboard when I stood behind it! :o) And playing again felt great!
Then, at about 10:30 p.m. as I was gathering all of my "teacher stuff" for the first time in three months, reality, shock, and horror set in (Da-Da-DA...you know the song)! I walked into the living room to see Clint holding our baby, and said to him, "I'm not feeling very well." It was then that I
kind of COMPLETEY LOST IT! I don't ever remember crying that much...EVER...and I'm a crier! It got to the point where I could not stop hyperventilating. I've never done that before. I was mad when I thought Clint shoved a pillow in my face to silence the intense moaning. However, he claims it was a temporary fix, and that he was using it just until he could get me a paper bag! A day after the fact I believe him. :o)
After about an hour, I calmed down and had a good night sleep filled with nightmares of leaving Liam...GREAT! Danae, our good friend and babysitter, showed up at eight this morning with a smile on her face and some encouraging words. She is COMPLETELY WONDERFUL. Clint and I could not be blessed with a better caretaker to watch Liam. She has graciously agreed to watch him at our house while I am at work for the rest of the school year. Liam loves her, and she loves Liam. She sent me hourly updates with pictures via text! What a gal!
I shed a few tears at work, but it was great to see my other 400-ish kiddos. I even got to send one to the office for mouthing off. Nothing like getting right back into the game! On a more positive note, I was greeted with a
big HUGE banner that said "Welcome Back Mrs. Finlayson, We missed you!" decorated by my students! I was also given a book from my 1st, 2nd, and 3rd graders titled "Tips for the Working Mom." Two of my favorite tips..."Never give Liom Turnups!! He will hate them!!" and "Mak sher you husband kooks you diner evry night...the picture...BEFORE: Me: Mak me sum diner wen I get home. Clint: Ok I will...AFTER: Clint: hony diners redy! Me: AHHHHH!!!" Bahhhaaaaa!!!! If you could only see that picture! PRICELESS!!! I think it may be the single best gift I have EVER received.
All-in-all it was a
pretty good bearable day. I missed my little bubs...I came home to a crying and hungry baby, but as soon as he heard my voice...he stopped and smiled...and so did I. My first real smile of the day!!!
